Capturing Imperfection

I have secretly always wanted to have a blog. I figured it would be a perfect way for me to express various thoughts, feelings, experiences, and insights in a manner that is available for those who may be interested while also not as bound by time and space as conventional conversation. However, what I’m starting to realize as I write this first post is that one of the hardest things to accept about writing and publishing your thoughts online is that it is not perfect. This post will never be perfect.

And that’s okay.

I suppose what I began to realize is that it has to be okay, because, in a way, that’s how life works. While we can choose to not write because we’re waiting for the right idea, opportunity, or moment to create the “perfect blog post”, that is not a luxury that we have in our daily lives.

As long as we are alive, we cannot choose to start writing “the book of our lives” when the perfect moment, time, or opportunity comes along. We are continually writing that book by simply existing. And the issue with being alive is that no matter what image of ourselves we project – we are flawed. We think things that we are ashamed of, say things we regret, and do things that we don’t want to be associated with. And yet, we continue to live, don’t we? No matter how imperfect we are and how many mistakes we make – do we not choose to keep going, perhaps even resolving to improve those imperfections at every step?

Now, if my writing is meant to be a representation of who I am and I am someone who is flawed, doesn’t it seem absurd to ever expect my writing to be perfect? And if my attitude towards life, despite all my imperfections, is one that insists on continuing to live and improve, shouldn’t my attitude towards writing be the same?

The reality is that my writing will never be what I want it to be. It’s never going to be the perfect representation that I want it to be – because even if I perfectly capture all that I think and feel – not only will no one be able to fully grasp what I have written because we all perceive the world in different ways, but the content itself will also lose its validity, because I would have become someone different by the end of writing that very piece.

And that’s true of everything that I’ve ever written – whether it’s thoughts I scribbled down on a piece of paper, a year-old Facebook post, or a blog neatly typed-up on a WordPress – it only takes a second glance after I’ve written it for me to find an imperfection or realize something that I did not before.

But I refuse to let that stop me any longer.

So, I take this blog as an opportunity for me to capture my imperfections and keep a catalog of my perpetual change. May you enjoy every post as a celebration and marking of my ongoing growth on the quest towards something resembling perfection. However, please understand that while each post may provide you with a glimpse of what goes on inside my head – it will only give you a taste of who I once was and will never again be.

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5 Comments Add yours

  1. aaronscherf says:

    I couldn’t agree more my man, keeping a blog reminds you quite a bit of life’s most important lessons, and being willing to accept yourself and all your you-ness is one of the first. I tend to avoid the term flaws now though, after being reminded by another post that there is no true measure of what is right or wrong in a person. What some may call imperfections are really what make us unique, what define us as people, and so to label them so negatively would mask their real worth. Steve Jobs’ greatest brilliance was in his relentless perfectionism and clarity of purpose – the very traits that made him great are what made so many hate working with him.

    As far as your blog, I would encourage you to write as “flawed” as possible; there are too many “perfect” posts out there that try to live up to expectations. People do not want to read what you think they want – they want you, the real you, to shine through your work. I agree that no one can ever be “perfect”, it denies us that by its very definition, but what we can become is a completely actualized version of our true selves. That is an expression of the soul. That, my friend, is real artistry.

    So write on Suraj – I enjoyed the first post and I look forward to reading more.

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  2. Sparkyjen says:

    If it helps to write, then write. Our lives are so filled to the brim at times. Writing helps to move some energy (positive or negative) along. It’s like cleaning out a drawer or a closet. Then you take the things that are no longer serving you to the dumpster, or the Goodwill. Either place your leave them off, someone probably needs them. I’m fascinated how this process works.

    “Free Your Mind, the Rest Will Follow.”

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